The Ides of March, She Hides

She Hides

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She Hides

Beware the Ides of March

She hides because it is the ides of Caesar’s day of woes.
She’s afraid to leave the house on such a fateful day
For fear she’ll go where Caesar’s vengeful spirit goes,
And he’ll collect whate’er it is he says it is she owes.
And so her life will bear his curse through each eternal day.
It is the ides; she hides.

She really knows, deep down, away inside of her,
That this assumption really is presumption,
But her superstition got the better part of her—
She trembles with the fear of being hooked upon his lure,
She never does expect that this could be pretension–
For it’s the ides; so she hides.

The evil of the doers hangs suspicious on the air;
You feel the threat’ning mist in which the evil spirit hides
As you adventure here and there; you feel the rising hair
Upon your neck and hear the blades upon the silent stair
As he comes to take your life as easy as he glides.
So she says; so it is she hides.
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But can the ghost of Caesar really come back and haunt?
Can a ghost come back and kill, simply a grudge to nurse?
He was never of Egyptian pharaoh’s blood and so his curse—
Believe or not the risk is strong and it is bound to daunt–
Was one of martyrdom, she says, and may be so much worse.
Or so she’s read; so it is she hides.

Yet she who feels can feel the wrath from yesteryear’s wrong deed.
Night sweats and horrid dreams do keep her well inside the door.
And who can argue with the fear of evil ’neath the floor?
Fears of woe that stop one’s daily life — she surely has to heed,
Yet such the reach of myth that thrives and in her soul does bore.
So it is she trembles; and so she hides.

Vengeance shall be mine, the ghost of Caesar says,
If you have tainted blood I’ll have a taste of that,
And you shall rue the day that ever you cheered my death
And I shall haunt your day in every way until you shrivel up!
And she believes; and so it is she hides.
Do you believe? Perhaps you’d better hide.

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Copyright © H. W. Bryce 2016, She Hides


For the person with Alzheimer’s, such fears, obsessions, hypertension, or superstitions might appear at any time, be persistent for a while, and be scary. Seek help.

CREDITS:   Hiding–  http://www.deviantart.com/art/hiding-98925265
stabbing–   http://www.deviantart.com/art/Knives-in-the-dark-262057458
Caesar– From Janet Kvammen, Planet Janet Creations
https://www.facebook.com/pages/PlanetJanet-Creations/210914705597127?fref=ts

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Tear It Down!

Tear It Down!

 

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News Flash: School Board and City want to tear down Little Yellow Schoolhouse.

Latest News: Local group fights to preserve heritage.

In Other News: Human brain under attack. Brain cells dying off. Suspect: Alzheimer’s.

Related News: Aussies use special sound waves to kill plaques on brain, recover memories.

 

Tear It Down!

Fancy building, gewgaws trim,
Standing decades looking prim—
Need is bigger, better class,
Made of steel and window glass.
Tear it down!

Heritage house of old granddad,
Grew grand kids, was always glad,
Had a hand-hewn shingle roof,
Built to be destruction proof.
Tear it down!

Yellow schoolhouse standing proud,
Writin’,’rithmatic, readin’ loud…
Grammar’s gone, writin’ is pass’ay,
We’ve gone ’lectronic, more class’ay.
Tear it down!

Yeah, yeah, who cares now? Tear it down!
Yeah, yeah, who wants to go back now?
Tear it down!
Behind the times, your days are through,
Tear it down! Tear it down!
Get it outta here you old-fashioned fool,
Time marches on, change is cool.
Tear it down! Tear it down! Tear it down!

Outgrown its use, need more space,
Now it’s Velcro, no more lace,
Must keep up with modern pace,
Give it up and give with grace.
Tear it down!

Judgement day the old court house,
Brick and mortar days are dead,
Old stone buildings cost too much,
No one cares ’bout stuff and such.
Tear it down!

So what we’re all over the place?
Designs do change and it’s a race
To meet the needs that also range.
’Course the look of the place will change.
Tear it down!

House of beauty standing proud?
Grandma lived there, never bowed?
Play the game, the field is plowed,
Grandma’s life no longer game.
Tear it down!

Memories? What are they?
What use are they today?
Yesterday is long, long gone,
No use your silly magic wand.
Tear it down!


“Copyright © 2016 by H. W. Bryce. All rights reserved.”

Picture credit:
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The Old Yellow Schoolhouse, Vancouver

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Forgotten Frontiers

FORGOTTEN FRONTIERS

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Forgotten are the memories of the Alzheimer’s people.
This is dedicated to all people with Alzheimer’s
and to their caregivers.

Forgotten Frontiers

Forgotten frontiers, forgotten roots,
Forgotten pioneering boots,
Standing bleached by wind and rain,
Standing still, but can’t sustain,
Beneath the louring, darkening cloud,
That with a clap of thunder loud
Would erase our pioneering past,
The story that was built to last.

Every shingle, every board,
Every wind and every chord
So backbreaking hewn by calloused hand,
To craft a home, to build a land,
To fill with heart, and dwell with soul,
Once left behind to the bad dust bowl,
Forgotten now and left to rot
As we go headlong on without a thought.

Forgotten now the soul who built
The life that now we live without the guilt.
We forge ahead, forever getting, rarely give,
Even forgot the art of how to live.
Forgotten history, forgotten folk,
Forgotten that to have a wheel you need a spoke.
Forgotten frontier, forgotten roots,
Forgotten pioneering boots.

Sometimes we forget the roll we play
And strut the stage, demand the pay,
Play the hero, forget to bend
While friends and family reach wits’ end,
Left behind in wind and rain,
Unable to sustain.
Forgetting minds, forgetting roots,
Left behind by walking boots.

Forgotten frontier, forgotten roots,
Forgotten pioneering boots.

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CREDITS: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Pine-Creek-Cabin-592551282

http://www.deviantart.com/art/These-boots-are-made-117062446

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Damn These Walls

 

 

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Damn These Walls

to all shutins

The Shutin

“I want to see outside…the sunsets, the trees; I want to see flowers, I want to see the birds flying by, nesting in the trees; I want to see the people, the children playing…
“Hell, I even want to see the snow fly, the wind blow down a tree.
“I want to see Life.
“I want to live…
“I am so sick of these four walls, these corridors, even these people.
“I crave variety. My mind is shutting down from boredom.
“It is shouting out for freedom:
“FREEdom! FreeDOM! … … …

“And no one answers my plea.
There is no one new to see.
Oh these people, they do their best,
And I bless them for that.
But for where I am at
It’s not enough.”

The Voice

May you find a window, find a door,
Find a friend to walk the floor
With you up and down the halls.
Check the walls for pictures, paintings,
Scrawls, leave your mark, leave a sign,
Let the world know you were here.
May you get to go outside, pick a flower,
Hear a song, leave a seed for a little bird.

You deserve the break, a mental steak,
For all that you endure shut in
All day, all night, left to depend upon
Those who serve. May you find peace,
Perhaps, in music, play a disc,
Sing a song–if only in your head.
At least you’ll know that you’re  not dead.

And if you’re home and if you’re stuck
And if you feel you’re out of luck,
Create a scene and act it out:
Do a Dagwood with the mop,
Sing and dance and sweep the floor,
Pretend the neighbour asks for more,
Hoot and holler, rail and shout,
At least you’ll scare the boredom out.

“Damn these walls,” you cry,
“Damn these walls, hope to die!”
Yet as you suffer every day,
Here’s what I have to say:

I admire your fortitude, my friend,
I praise your patience to the end.
I congratulate you on survival,
Painful though that be,
For you are stronger far than I
Who have the freedom here to walk,
And if your tongue cannot, your body talk
Explains it all, and I’ll be here for you,
You are my star, my guiding light,
And though you are the one shut in,
It’s you who makes my living bright.

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They never change and they never give,
They only hold me in and leer at me.
There’s a world out there I cannot see–
Oh wall! Damn you all you crazy walls!”

And the wall said, “Hold on there just a min,
There’s a good reason I keep you in,
I’m here to protect you, come rain, come shine;
I am your shelter, you are not mine,
It is not I who keeps you in,
Do not rail against one who is a friend,
Take it easy instead and try to mend.”
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Picture Credits:

Top picture: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Imprisoned-97374738

Bottom picture: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Week-28-All-this-Waiting-319880806

 

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Wine and Cheese Days

 

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Wine and Cheese Days

I remember all our wine and cheese days,
Warm gatherings saved up for for months;
How I remember you choosing cheeses,
How carefully you matched them with the wines.
I recall warm talk and aging friendships,
How you were the hostess with the most–
And I was there to raise the toast.
And I was the one who brought you bouquets
of dreams, gateways to our better lives.

And you have ripened fine dear,
And grown in wisdom and in warmth,
And you have aged with grace dear,
How deeply felt my love, dear.

How I loved the view of life we had then,
There was never any strife then,
Every morn was fresh and new then,
In our days of wine and cheese.
We kept too busy to be dour then,
How rich we were then, though poor.

Oh how I long for our wine and cheese days.
We were so young, life was so beautiful;
We worked all day, we danced the nights away…
I remember all the laughter–
There was always laughter–
And there was always ever after…
So very glad we had this time.
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I always said, it was our prayer,
My silly toast thrown up from our cozy lair:
May we age like wine and keep like cheese,
May our lives always be a breeze,
May all our days be wine and cheese,
And may it be our hearts will never freeze.

I used to say that:
May there always be the wine and cheese,
And may the wine be free of lees.

Oh,  how I miss you now dear,
To hold me, kiss me, tell me all is fine, dear,
Calm my fears, tell me that the end
Is nowhere nigh. To give me a sigh
And bring me wine and cheese, dear.
I’ll drink to you dear, I have no fear dear,
As long as you are here my dear,
All our days are wine and cheese days.

So here’s to wine and cheese,
Here’s to that loving squeeze,
I thank you for your loving ways,
I cherish all the days
We spent together,
Never were there any better
Than our heady wine and cheese days.

We were matched like fine cheese and wine,
Paired for life, set to dine on love alone.
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And life together still is fine.

I still can taste our love of yore,
And still I want some more
Of the scent of you, the taste of you,
Never enough of wine and cheese days.
I carry you in my heart,
I pray our souls will never part.

Never enough of cheese and wine
And the flavours of life that bind,
And high on life we didn’t only live, we dined;
I carry on and cherish all the days gone by,
Those days of cheese and wine,
And wine and cheese, a loving squeeze,
A daze of wine and cheese days.

So here’s to our wine and cheese days,
Fine living in our poor days,
And to our happy ever after days,
And to our love in everlasting ways.

A loaf of home made bread,
A glass of wine and you dear,
What more could a fellow want?

 

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CREDITS: All illustrations from Microsoft ClipArt

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Whatever happened to routine?

 

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http://www.mygoalis.uk.com/begin-with-the-end-in-mind/

 

Change of Schedule

Whatever happened to routine?

Musings on The Loss of Routine

She’s gone. What now? Where went routine?

No more visits.

And my afternoon falls apart…

Now I have questions.

Starting in the ayem, what shirt to wear? To look good at the home (or work), meeting others?

Wear my grubbies because I expect to be home alone all day? Or wear my business suit because I’m running a business (my blog) and this is my office?

And how about the routine? It’s gone. Purpose is gone. It is no longer work in the forenoon and beyond, have lunch, get ready, go visit.

Is it now work, work, work? Work lunch, brood? Sleep in, breakfast (if I feel like it), maybe work, maybe putter, worry?

Should I actually go outside and go for a walk?

Maybe I should actually do some housework? Too much dust; too many sneezes. Well, I guess that is something to sneeze at.

What about the book. Should I just bury myself in that and dedicate my existence to “the book?” Well I have to do that anyway.

Change of schedule up ahead.

So,
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Whatever Happened to Routine?

What to do? What do I do now, now that you have gone?
Why this awful darkness where once the light had shone?
No more loving game – nothing now the same,
Where we did things together, that thing without a name.

What do you do when your lover goes away?
What do you say when no longer can she stay?
How do you fill that great gaping gap
Left behind when this lifeline snaps?

What did you do to deserve this loneliness?
What went wrong that she was called away?
How do you go on when she’s not there for you?
Where will you find a place for you to hide?

It’s kinda like, where is that other shoe?
Never quite sure about what am I to do.
Am I going here or am I doing that?
I’ve lost my focus now, and this is where I’m at.

Whatever happened to routine?
The grass at home is no longer shades of green.
I don’t have the clock to guide me now,
And you’re no longer here to show me how.
You’re no longer here to hold me by the hand,
I feel so lost and life no longer feels so grand.
The grass at home no longer grows so green.
Whatever happened to routine?

What direction now, now that I’m alone?
Why am I so tired, tired to the bone?
There’s nothing here, there’s nothing there,
All paths lead me to the nowhere, yet here I am at everywhere.

Now that you’re gone the only sign that I can see
Is a change of direction, a change of direction.
But the signs all are blank and there’s nothing more to see,
My purpose has been taken, you were taken away from me.

I go in all directions, I go to here, I go to there,
But here I find me nowhere, and there I’m everywhere
Whatever happened to routine?
Whatever happened to routine?

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Image credits: Both comic images from Microsoft Clip Art.
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Life is a Partnership

 

Life is a Partnership

 

Swinging into Old Age

Life is a partnership, a me and a you,
A hand in a hand as a concert of two
Going where never we’ve gone before,
Building a future with love at its core.

From first kiss to last kiss and each kiss between,
This path of discovery will be bound to be seen
As a tournament of sharing with one and with all
In the game that is life where we all share the ball.

So join with this you and join with this me
In the awe of  the wonderment and friendship and love,
Give of your kindness that’s often hard won,
And each help each one do what cannot be done by the one.

 

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Drop the armor, drop the spear, dump the gun, disarm the bomb,
For employing them inevitably leads us to the tomb
And disables Mother’s womb, whereas to leave a crumb
Of hope and a pointing to a worthy goal
Can form that partnership for which our life was born.
Go forth, explore, and spread the friendship word,
You will surprise yourself and for it be the stronger.
So screw the gods of war and fuck the goddam warringmongers!

For in life where hugs pay dividends and bullets never do,
A friendly kiss, an encouraging slap upon the back
Will earn you friends and not an enemy attack,
And soon we will be many, including all the meeker few.

And then as we begin our journey into the age of old,
We can sit and swing and reminisce and hear the story told
Of how we all made peace among the sour warring crowds,
And now we keep such playful pups instead of warring hounds.

Yes life is just a partnership, a you and a single one of me,
A ticket to go there hand in hand where never we’d gone before.
So much to see, so much to share, so much that we could dare.
The wonderment of life itself, so much of world for which to care.
It’s time to do and not to sit and stare, it’s time to board the ship
And join in life ’cause life is meant to be a partnership.

Life is a partnership, it is a you and a me,
Going throughout life as a single we,
Everywhere together with a hand in a hand,
Face to face with the world, as a dual band.

Never should there be and antonym to life,
Although that life was never meant to be forever
It was given for a reason, not only to be spent;
Your life is meant to share and willingly to dare,
For giving is receiving and living is to care.

 

♥   On a personal note, I have found such partnership in life, and in the Alzheimer’s community. Friendship (and charity) made the difference.

Let’s all reach out.

PICTURE CREDIT: https://pixabay.com/en/old-people-lovers-man-woman-love-545232/

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